Monday, February 13, 2012
So... I have to just say it: I hate losing weight. It's so hard. And it's so frustrating.
I had such great success over the summer, but I burnt myself out. So now I'm trying the "slow & steady" approach - generally watching what I eat & working out at least 4 times a week (at least 30 minutes at a time). I feel stronger & more confident with every work out, but I'm not losing weight, or inches, or dress sizes. I'm just kinda staying the same.
But, staying on the positive side. I am growing a lot (mentally) through my weekly work outs. I'm done with my personal trainer - too expensive to keep it up! - and now am facing the challenge of pushing myself. No one's telling me what to do. It's all me. And I am determined to not back out. And as a result I'm growing.
I'm learning how to push past being uncomfortable. I'm learning how to read my body and give it a rest when it needs it. I'm also learning when my mood is so terrible and all I want to do is crawl up in a dark room that I should probably get my butt over on a treadmill stat.
I'm writing more, too, because I'm physically stimulated, I'm more open to mental stimulation. So I picked up my internship over at Stupid Dope and began writing my Marriage Series with a drive I didn't know was possible.
And that's where my life's at right now.
What's going on in your world?