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Thursday, June 28, 2012

You want to hear a not-so-secret secret?

These two just make me happy. They are pure joy (and a little bit of tears) every time I see them. And this Monday - for odd reasons that may come at a later time - the moons aligned and I got to hang out with these guys for a few hours.

You see Pepper Jo, smiling? That's only the second smile I've gotten from her, in her 3 months of existence. But, this is the first one I caught on camera. And I am in love. And Danzig, up there on the left, ate the entire meal insistent that salt would cure the "spicy" of the sausage. Oh joy.

It's really good for me to be an Aunt right now, because it's preparing me for motherhood. Not in the "I know how to change a diaper!" kind of way, but more in the "I'm experiencing love I can't explain" kind of way.

You want to hear a not-so-secret secret? I don't like babies.

Which baffles half of you, and relieves the other half. But it's true. I'm not the girl who coos and giggles the second a little one is brought in the room. I babysat in my teens, but was never really good at it. In fact, even when holding these two above, I'm not very good at it.

But the second I'm around these two something *clicks* and my heart does something that can't properly be explained. And I know that it's preparation for when I have my own. Feeling my heart melt over these two softens me to the idea of being a mom. And I need that lesson right now, because the time's coming quicker than I ever thought possible.

As C & I come up on our 3 year anniversary in a few weeks, I can finally say I'm starting to look into the not so distant future, and what was once complete static now has a little form in it. And I can say, with 100% certainty, I owe that to Danzig & Pepper. ♥

also can we just agree how adorable their names are? 
I have to give my sister props for that!

Have a Lovely Day!


  1. I don't really like kids either except my own. I'm kind of bias though ;).

  2. I felt the same way. And look at me now!

  3. I don't like babies either. At family gatherings people always fight about who gets to hold the baby next. I always give my turn to someone else. I've held a baby ONCE in my 30 years and I didn't really like it. They squirm! LOL. I joke with my husband that we should adopt a kid 8-10 years old so we can skip the little kid part. Not so sure I would like a 10 year old either. LOL.

    I know what you mean about feeling your heart melt. This sounds terrible but I feel that way with my dog. I can only imagine how much greater it would be with a child of my own.

  4. You're going to be a great momma when the time comes! Just reading about how happy these make you two is enough to know that you're going to do a fantastic job!

  5. Love love love kids, have none. My sister was like you until she ad her own!

  6. I'm exactly the same!! Im not the biggest fan of kids (possibly because i have 5 siblings) but every time i look at my nephew i go a little gooey on the inside!! he does nothing but roll around and smile! xx Elly @ jazzlipsandtulips