These two just make me happy. They are pure joy (and a little bit of tears) every time I see them. And this Monday - for odd reasons that may come at a later time - the moons aligned and I got to hang out with these guys for a few hours.
You see Pepper Jo, smiling? That's only the second smile I've gotten from her, in her 3 months of existence. But, this is the first one I caught on camera. And I am in love. And Danzig, up there on the left, ate the entire meal insistent that salt would cure the "spicy" of the sausage. Oh joy.
It's really good for me to be an Aunt right now, because it's preparing me for motherhood. Not in the "I know how to change a diaper!" kind of way, but more in the "I'm experiencing love I can't explain" kind of way.
You want to hear a not-so-secret secret? I don't like babies.
Which baffles half of you, and relieves the other half. But it's true. I'm not the girl who coos and giggles the second a little one is brought in the room. I babysat in my teens, but was never really good at it. In fact, even when holding these two above, I'm not very good at it.
But the second I'm around these two something *clicks* and my heart does something that can't properly be explained. And I know that it's preparation for when I have my own. Feeling my heart melt over these two softens me to the idea of being a mom. And I need that lesson right now, because the time's coming quicker than I ever thought possible.
As C & I come up on our 3 year anniversary in a few weeks, I can finally say I'm starting to look into the not so distant future, and what was once complete static now has a little form in it. And I can say, with 100% certainty, I owe that to Danzig & Pepper. ♥
also can we just agree how adorable their names are?
I have to give my sister props for that!
Have a Lovely Day!